Recently, I heard a blurb on why suffering is permitted, especially by those (including myself), who believe in a God that profoundly loves us. I too carry a hidden intimacy with chronic cluster migraines for the past 25 years, that left me in lonely, desperate pity parties celebrated every minute of every day. After dutifully attempting all “cures” – I left the world of the shoulder-shrugging, well-intentioned neurologists many years ago. Yet there is a silver lining to desperation… and it glows in the stillness of prayer. Embracing my pain emancipates an unexpected richness in the grace of peace drawn from ever-deepening prayer. The many levels of prayer removes my filter of focusing on pain, unleashes the cascading ambience of my intimate and omnipresent Father, my Redeemer and understanding Son, and the warmth of a comforting Spirit. Even during the excruciating times that sap the will to do anything but melt…I know prayer is my answer-even when it’s not my cure. Therefore, for those of you in far worse condition then me, please seek beyond your wills for the extraordinary grace glowing in your distant and dark nights.
A Burden With A Smile
Chronic is the fire burning inside my head
Ravaging the hope to be free from pain,
Rest is impossible even lying in bed,
This unrelenting rage seeks its only gain –
Yearning to consume my soul after my brain
Yet, I bear my burden with a smile,
and refuse to slow from this ball and chain,
The secret of pain is found trodding its mile,
Releasing its secret – instead of its shame.
Like endorphins released in the midst of a race,
Splashing through puddles, cursing the rain,
Embracing the suffering and inhaling God’s grace.
For fear is the mountain we avoid to climb,
Yet fear is a lie…hiding a key we all must find.
©2013 by Chris Clody 4/28/2013
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